Escape

Man I am so stuck at the moment, all my optimism has died and I am seriously considering leaving the design world which I have yet entered behind. I feel the desire to burn all my money on a long and big trip overseas to Africa or Asia and soon. So many fights about jobs and money its really depressing. Met up with a few others who have finished ID and are in a similar position one is planning on leaving their soul crushing job that is only needed for the money and the other is lucky to have a good family that can help out, and have a few networks.

I am thinking of leaving design and doing a trade, can't stand office work and I like the outdoors. Not sure still thinking this all over... So bored getting desperate and have no faith in design. I am not the type of person who can constantly just search for work.

Would be awesome just blowing all my savings and quitting my job to travel, even do some volunteer work, meet new people live life feel like I have something worth getting out of bed for, leaving all the fights behind. Though will run out of money and therefore will return to the same predicament. I would just move out of home though urn to little in my current job, I keep on looking at other jobs and remember why I went to uni in the first place.

Occasionally when I am at a lowest point I consider the mail order bride... At least I would get to go to another country... generally they support you too. Ahh the responsibility to clothe and feed oneself and generally be happy. I would take any job at this point to open up my options interstate even.

Yes I am having one of those bleak fun days... Though I am going to look at some sort of overseas trip something to look forward to if even only for a month away... Looking into other careers to, not cut out for design world as I need to live to create at the same time.